Seed sower

And so life began
not that i bargained for it
and so i fell flat in the hands of him
brought to the eyes of my carriage
i couldn't understand my lineage
not by choice
but where was marriage
it's door left ajar
by nobody but the gardener.
Seed sower, where are you?
living behind the shadow of my own
for the mirror in which my reflection shone
already broke since love you haven't shown.
Followed her everywhere
learned to be a man
from thinking in the mind of a woman
found solace in the hand
hand of him that sold contraband
though he took me for his own
i learnt all too quickly
how to sell my own,
but really twas eating my freedom
eyes opened being caged
3 days behind bars
yet she was all i owned
seed sower, where were you?
Learnt all too quickly to love
glad i didn't turn out like you
i treat her like mama taught me
she loves me like i love you
but knows me like you'll never know
your absence helped me grow
your actions made me strong
and your words as negative as the were
drove me to whom I am today
all I ask is one day
so you'll say to mama
how much we meant if anything.
For now
your hidden love will suffice.

Fimisola-Samuel