God Dilema

Confused, missing, broken
searching, yearning, questions
yet no clue, no proof, no answers
so I hope at the foot of the cross
ain't nothing but people's words
they annoy and make me cross
searching through the books
nothing makes it better than history
like someone sat and made up a story
but at my every wrong
those words make me sorry.
All brovas trynna win you over
sistahs saying there ain't no other
but if all paths were right
so what decides the right?
The son of a preacher man,
the one who refuses halal
what about the toddler...kissing on Baal
from that junction-ain't no other word but lost
'cos i've tried at every cost
just to hear him speak like they say he do
searching is like trynna find the unexplainable
'zit cos we don have enough wisdom to be able
how 'bout it's all just a fable
like some friends dining over wine at a table
may be that's what makes a miracle
wait-how about we just consult an oracle?
They say he ever faithful,
how about man just created a thought
to fill the void of him needing something more?
and he just passed it to his sons
with stories exaggerated all the more.
Without it they say we'd be lost
but because of it the twin towers have been lost?
would 7.7.'07 ever have happened?
maybe the Nazi's would never have lived...
if in the end there were no heaven or hell
what if 'twas a thing of culture
well that seems to ring a bell
judge not that thou may not be judged
innumerable are they that said in hell i belong
i just might remind them about that law
when someday, i walk by them in hell.
They say in his breath all life was made
from whatever was it he was made
as fondly called...the uncreated creator.
In his image all was beautifully made
if you will allow-then u imagine her image.
so what happened to sex and genome?
and since evolution wasn't that the norm?
who would deny being formed by nuclear fusion
and then chromosomal and cellular fission?
evolution itself has tables left unturned
for earth has rolled over many millennia
yet the only thing evolving are viruses and bacteria
that's because humans mock up their genes
and already expiring patients'
failure to comply with drug regimes.
Speaking of sex how about they that judge the sodomites
and say it's cos such men be possessed
how in animals can they explain it
if it were such a sin
why would he let the world be so full of it?
so he can sit there and count more people go to hell?
and ain't that breaking his words
that he ain't one to take pleasure in wickedness,
Some say its a matter of choice
tell me since when did 'bent' swans tell left from right?
and all this while of the just suffering
so where did he have his eyes?
Since life indeed is not fair, so maybe it's just-coincidence.
To talk about his incidence is to dare his precedence
so we all follow along...like zombies with no conscience.
How do u have a leader with unquestionable principles?
and nothing about his incidence we know,
and yet his perfection so rightly remains unquestioned.
Well i keep asking my questions
even to the men and women who hold his positions
in what ever clan or religion
and all they keep saying is read his holy words
and some even dare take the piss
cos i've given them a taste of their own medicine
but certainly i walk away with a hiss
but that is to say in other words
that they themselves are just as lost.
But more disturbing is the question...
what exactly are we living for
and a more incongruous answer
living life for God...
so what is this God?
don't get me wrong...not taking a piss off anyone!
zit just another hide and seek in the mob
or simply all by the books called?
then twill be nothing but defined by someone
but just as i think..its all vain
and until he speaks, or does someone with answers
so i will remain...

Fimisola-Samuel